Dear Ọrẹolúwa,
You gave your all to still be physically here. So I will not give up on you. I miss you deeply every minute. I know you are still here with us in some way. I know it and feel it. While it is comforting, it will never be or feel like when you are physically here. I held your body close, prayed with you, speak with you, provided you warmth, massaged your body and cherished every moment for as long and far as I could. You never liked cremation. I wish it was possible that your body could be planted (not buried) very close to me. Despite your age, your faith-filled life is one of peace and joy. I would rather have you in any situation, rather than not having you at all. I know that you feel the same way about me and you have said it often with so much conviction beyond your physical age. I know that you want to be loved forever and that is what I will keep doing. We shared something that I had hoped for all my life: a love that would not just survive the storm of physical death, but would become unbreakable because of it. I hold on to our faith in Jesus Christ that your memory will live on and your person will never be forgotten. What a wonderful and sweet boy you are. You are kind, loving, creative, disciplined, patient, forgiving, and generous. You are the most gentle, beautiful, and tender soul I have ever known. Most days I just feel so thankful that God honored me to be your dad, still with tears though. I know for sure that if I had the choice, I would always choose 11 years physically with you over not having you physically at all. I would make that choice every single time. I still wonder how you would have been if you are still physically here… because the reality is, you are not, and it hurts deeply. It is hard that I cannot watch you develop into the incredible, intelligent, warm, gentle and empathetic young man you are becoming. There is an empty physical place where you used to be. I have to adapt to the new reality. You are forever an important part of my life. I am grateful to God that my last words to you were deep, loving and comforting and the smile on your face and thumbs up were signs of purity, belief, pride and fulfilment. God bless you sweetheart!
See you soon Buddy!
😘💕♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡💕
Kolade (Papa)
